Happy Birthday

grief healing trauma healing Apr 03, 2022

You’ve been gone for 14 years now. It doesn’t seem possible yet here I am on your birthday missing you.

You would’ve been 76 years old today which doesn’t even seem old anymore.

I miss you but I have to admit it’s much easier to live not having to prove I’m worthy of your love + praise.

Much easier not having to worry about you being ok.

It’s sad but my nervous system is grateful for the peace, knowing you are much better off being able to start over fresh without all the trauma you had in this life. Praying that you got to have a mother that nourished you this time, a father that was proud of you, a family to encourage you to follow your dreams…

I’m grateful for everything I learned from you. I decided to parent my children very differently than I was raised. Yet I remembered as my kids grew up that you also did amazing things as a parent that were buried under the memory of not so amazing things.

And I realized you did the best you could with what you learned from your childhood. We’re all here to learn different lessons. I’m grateful to have had you here to help me learn what I came here to learn from you.

I love you 💛⚡️✨

This pic of from my wedding day December 10,1995 I couldn’t stop crying so you were telling me dumb dad jokes 😂