PART ONE of a kinda long story:

PART ONE of a kinda long story:

Hey love! I’ve missed you! I’ve taken some time away from this app because I felt so internal that I couldn’t even think of anything to say {I know that’s hard to believe if you know me 😂}

Almost two weeks ago I went for this hike with some powerful sisters after a moon lodge in the mountains + on my way home, I cried the whole way back to the beach.

Part of me had died on that hike, you see. I have been in mourning ever since.

After a few days of feeling this intense grief, I wanted to explain to assure you that if you’re feeling the same way, that it is just part of a process we’re all going through. A huge upgrade is coming.

But my guides were like hey, no. Everyone needs to listen to their own guidance right now.

So I went back into my cave + nourished myself.

I ate simple yet nutritive foods to support my body in cleansing.

I drank a ton of water to make sure that my energetic body was able to function properly.

I gave myself soundbaths + chanted to calm my nervous system.

I allowed myself to be still. To completely stop doing.

That was the hardest part. Because if you know me, I’m always doing something. I usually have too much energy in my body. I’m here to live my life as fully as I possibly can. I have a purpose to my existence + take that very seriously. To do nothing felt like failure!

Yet I trusted my body that was telling me to stop and be still.

I trusted my guides that told me to take a break from a big project I’m working on.

I trusted my intuition.

I ignored my logical mind which screamed at me that this was a huge mistake. I’d lose momentum. I’d lose all the progress I’d made. People would stop wanting to work with me. No one would remember me when I stepped back into the world. People would judge me as weak or broken.

I felt so horrible that I didn’t even care. I had zero energy to do anything but stare at the tv {I watched every episode of queer as folk 😂} I couldn’t even go for my nightly walk at the beach to watch the sunset.

It feels like it’s been months, years, lifetimes. I can’t believe it’s only been two weeks.

Part two is coming soon in my next post 💛