So when my dad sent me this pic that he took of Micah and I...
Apr 08, 2022
So when my dad sent me this pic that he took of Micah and I on my 21st birthday in 1995, we were shocked to see how tiny we looked. Maybe we had fasted a little too long? Lol we were living in our VW van next to the Deschutes River just outside of Redmond Oregon at the time. It was about 6 weeks after Jerry’s memorial in San Francisco. We had no clue what to do after tour ended. Life felt really uncertain yet also like something new was coming but we had no idea what it was.
Well on this day I found out I was pregnant. π³ that shook things up a bit. We spent about a week hanging out with my dad and grandparents in Redmond then we decided to go back down to Humboldt to help some friends trim their harvest + figure out our next steps.
A bunch of real crazy shit happened next. Somehow within a few weeks we’d end up moving to winter park Colorado. 11k ft above sea level. If you know me, you know I do best at the edge of a body of water, but that I seek out the mountains when I’m stressed or need a new perspective. Well Colorado def did that. We were right at the shores of grand lake in the rocky mtns.
We stayed a few weeks and then said fuck this to the cold + left for San Diego to grow our baby in the sun.
I love this pic because it was a pivotal moment in our life. Everything was about to change. I could sense it, but I had no clue just how much would change. π it was so exciting. I knew we could handle anything cuz we were such a good team.
I’ve slowly been letting go of our soul contract since he left us on New Year’s Day + tomorrow is Micah’s memorial. I’m letting go + closing a chapter of my life and starting a whole new book. Looking forward to it. πβ‘οΈβ¨
Grief has helped me process the transition. Prepared me for it. Allowed me to go as slow/quick as needed to heal what has come up. And omg. So much has come up for healing. I feel like a new person in so many ways. I see myself responding to triggers differently. I see how things that were extremely painful that happened in the past were absolutely necessary for my growth. I am so fucking grateful for it all.
As I move forward I am so full of love + ready for more beautiful experiences.
Well on this day I found out I was pregnant. π³ that shook things up a bit. We spent about a week hanging out with my dad and grandparents in Redmond then we decided to go back down to Humboldt to help some friends trim their harvest + figure out our next steps.
A bunch of real crazy shit happened next. Somehow within a few weeks we’d end up moving to winter park Colorado. 11k ft above sea level. If you know me, you know I do best at the edge of a body of water, but that I seek out the mountains when I’m stressed or need a new perspective. Well Colorado def did that. We were right at the shores of grand lake in the rocky mtns.
We stayed a few weeks and then said fuck this to the cold + left for San Diego to grow our baby in the sun.
I love this pic because it was a pivotal moment in our life. Everything was about to change. I could sense it, but I had no clue just how much would change. π it was so exciting. I knew we could handle anything cuz we were such a good team.
I’ve slowly been letting go of our soul contract since he left us on New Year’s Day + tomorrow is Micah’s memorial. I’m letting go + closing a chapter of my life and starting a whole new book. Looking forward to it. πβ‘οΈβ¨
Grief has helped me process the transition. Prepared me for it. Allowed me to go as slow/quick as needed to heal what has come up. And omg. So much has come up for healing. I feel like a new person in so many ways. I see myself responding to triggers differently. I see how things that were extremely painful that happened in the past were absolutely necessary for my growth. I am so fucking grateful for it all.
As I move forward I am so full of love + ready for more beautiful experiences.
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